i believe in god!

2011-12-29T03:18:00.000-08:00

before the end of 2011,
I wish to tell you, let you know that,
im doing well with my life currently.
I dont know whether will you still re-visit this blog,
but still i wanna tell you that its been 2 years 7 months,
i wonder how have you been,
as usual smoke less.eat more alright.do take good care of your health.
imy really do.
but i know i can no longer miss,love you like what i used to.
dear elf,wishing you a great year 2012 ahead, may you find your love one someday.

best wishes always,
carina <3

2009-05-23T01:15:00.000-07:00

hey!
i think this will be my very last post to this blog..
cause i wanna leave it as a memory.
i wanna thanks him for always being such a good bf.
i wanna thanks him for always putting me in the first place.
i wanna thanks him for always give the best to me
i wanna thanks him for all the love he gave it to me
i wanna thanks him for everything
i promise i will fully concentrate on my studies.

i hope you will take good care of yourself
i will always rmb you "elf"
take good care
bye:DD

2009-05-15T08:02:00.000-07:00

heys.
alright..
i was very very very stressful and sad nowadays..
omgodddddddd..
im going crazy.
& im dying!! soon...
haix..
anyway..
happy anni(:
maybe u have forgotten,
or..maybe...
but..still.. i wanna wish to say "happy anni"..
hope that you're doing good:DD
im really really really tiredeeeeeeee..
hahaha..
haizxzxzx..
im scared.im sad.
till here(:

2008-11-27T05:37:00.000-08:00

♥ HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY DEAR(:
muack muack<3
heh.
been very busy these few days..
muahahaha.
shall update abt what happen in the past few days tml:D
hahaha.
im very very very tired today:D
today accompany dear,i kept on sleep.
heh...i love dear.
stay happy always lovee.
byebye(=

2008-11-23T23:12:00.000-08:00

♥ DEAR..stay happy always KKK?..
wahahaha.

2008-11-15T02:30:00.000-08:00

♥ Happy anniversary mr asshole/elf(=
hello.
woke up at 12+...tired nahh.
hahaha.
then,suppose to meet him at 1.
but..i was latee again-.-
hees.
slack at voideck.
blah blah blah.
heh.
he was crazy can.
wanna pull my white hair-.-
heh.but i dont allow(=
then..back home at 5+..hees..tiring.
im wondering,
do we really trust each other?.
ha:/
thanks for everything.
"Even when we're miles and miles apart.you're still holding all of my heart".
promise me..to stay happy and strong wherever you go.:D
heh.
i will miss benson.thx benson(=
ooh.is coming really soon...:D
byebye...

CARINA~sandra:hellooooooo(=
CARINA~joycelyn: hello.love sitting on you.heh.jk.(=
CARINA~ying:hey.welcome.(=
CARINA~bala: hello balalala.yea.long time never disturb yOu(=
CARINA~venom: hey.hohoho.you are?.(=
CARINA~chan: hello.hahaha(= funny.
CARINA~charles: hey.thank yOu(=

2008-11-12T07:02:00.000-08:00

♥ hello(=
back from chalet.
mum let me overnight ytd.
ho.
should have overnight on monday.more fun.haha
but...
thx yy for e chat on phone.
ytd...was so boring till 2a.m.
i wake her up...
hahaha.
ask her bring me out of e room.
heh.
so i walk alone to blah.
and she went back to slp.
then 3plus till morning was with dear.
ho.
never sleep.hahaha.
tsk.he just love bullying me.that assholeeeeX:
then,10+ check out.
hoo.
i find that..haix.
"different world"...
then dear send me home.
blahhh.
he was tired.hahaha.
reach home and hit my bed for 5hrs+.
then...housework..
shall turn in early today..
very tired.:D
heh...
eek.mr cough still haven gone yet.-.-
byeyebyebye.

2008-11-10T08:34:00.000-08:00

♥ hello hello.
suppose to meet bf at 12.
but i was late again for 45mins?..heh.sry...
then blah blah blah.
sit at voideck.........
blah blah blah.
then sweety came.heh.
then blah blah blah.
that asshole and sweety is so bad nahh.
hahaha.
then meet ying after i reach home.
then meet grace tgt to go e chalet.
ho.
saw friends.....hahaha.
then bbq.
then take pics...
then stay at e room play games.
hahaha.fun.
then mum called.
fetch me and yy home.
it is so damn early.
mum say i can stay.
but.hahaha.
forget it.:/
life is so unfair.
haix.
nite.(=
mr cough came to find me tooX:
haix.
chalet.
i love 4E:D

2008-10-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

♥ OUCH.i want to say.haha.
i cant really get up from my bed this morning.
tees.
sorry dear,late for half & hour(:
wanna say sorry to dear.
cause cant accompany him to go out shop shopx:
i promise.next time neh.im sure im free.hees.:D
then off to DANCE with her.(:
what a torturing day.!!!!!
shoulder very very pain.haha
DANCE training will be coming up in e holidaysss,
DANCE camp too.-_-
haha.
tired neh.
im sorry yy,just now no mood to chat on phone.:D
byebye.
-.-

2008-10-15T08:44:00.000-07:00

i enjoy my day with them(:
we play whatever crazy things tgt:D
so sweet having you guys(((:
basketball is fun:D hees
loves.(:
Our yummy neh:D hahaha

heex.hello hello:D

off out to orchard then far east then WALK to PS with:

MS FAT,MS AUNTY,MR RABBIT & MR CHARCOAL.

hahahaha.

so tiring.

but having a good time indeed.

long time never so happy.ANGRY.tiring le.

tees. they are simply just duper funny:DD

yar.long long time since we gO out tgt once again(:

i miss sec one.really.hahaha:p

shall go out often neh.(:

i have a really nice day today:DDD thank you.

iloveyouguys.<33

but...

something bothering me next.

DANCE last min tml.boo.

but i want go out with bf nah.humph.

headache headache.

both i also wan go.

haix....................

headache.

but.have decided anw.

hahaha.anna very funny.hahaha

shall go DANCE neh:DDD

tees.bf,is really a understanding boyfriend:D loves.

2008-10-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

♥ very pissed off with something.
boo. ihateit.
-_-
byebye.

2008-10-14T00:28:00.000-07:00

♥ Attached or single?
# Attached:D
♥ How much do you love your boy/girl?
# uh huh.er.very much.
♥ Does he/she make you angry before?
# yea.several times(:
♥ Does he/she make you happy before?
# yea.(:
♥ Does he/she ever bully you?
# heh.ya.he loves bullying me:D
♥ Does he/she scolded you before?
# er.nope.(: haha
♥ Are you happy being with he/she?
# yes.i do.[=
♥ Ever regret having he/she?
# No.(:
♥ Did he/she make you cry before?
# er.i think so.-_-
♥ Do you wear make up?
# er.nope.
♥ You like boy or a girl?
#uh.er.boy.
♥ Are you rich?
# noope.
♥ Do you have any friends?
# yar.
♥ What you doing now?
# nothing.
♥ What you eating now?
# nothing.
♥ What you wearing now?
#lol-.- Dance T and short and blah.hees
♥ Do you love to eat?
# yea.
♥ Do you prefer a noisy or quiet place?
# QUIET. everyone shut up.hahaha
♥ Do you prefer having a cute boyfriend/girlfriend?
#cute boyfriend.:D
♥ Do you want your boyfriend to be handsome?
#er.depends(: im looking for those who have kind-hearted:D
♥ Smoker/ Non-smoker?
#er. nOn-smoker(: [i know elf is trying very hard to quit] haha(:

2008-10-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

♥ hey:D
tOday was okok neh.
i was really scared of "FIREEEE".....
that ELF was duper bad.teehees:D
-_-
blah.nothing to update.
chatted with anna on msn(:
yeah.swim swim:D
but,must wait until finish first.hees.
then,currently chatting with yy on phone:D
planning our nov holiday(:
busy nOw.....
bbye.[:
Nervous for RESULTSSS:D

2008-10-03T04:47:00.000-07:00

eh.
im super pissed off laaaaaaa.
#$#@$%^%#^#^#^$
tsk.
what for....
what for..
i****youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...
boo.
i feel likeeee.........
eating someone
swallow someone
kick someone buttock
bite someone .BITE BITE BITE. tskkkk-.=
hug someone
haix.
crazy.
byebyebyebbe.................

why must this HAPPEN always and always.
who am i to youuuuuuuuu.
haix.
bye.
im gonna crazy.
but not gonna to CRY.:D

oh ya.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA:D
HAPPY CHIDREN DAY.

2008-09-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

i will help you find back your HOPE
PLEASE DONT GIVE UP.
THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE .

2008-09-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

15.09.08

tOday.a tiring day.-.-
but. i've realise something.
everyone is just putting a fake mask on their face la.
haix.
idontknow how to say.
whatever.
so FAKE!-.-
hahahhaha.
then,grandma came.
blah blah and stuff.
hmm.
im sooooooooooo
STRESS.............
head gOnna tO burst. bOOOOOO..-.-
nah. this friday gary nggg birthday.
thinking Of what to buy laaa.
yea.L.T. we 5 shall go out tgt sOOn.=)
nth tO pOst abt. too tired.and lazzyyayayee.

lastly,
happy 2yr 1month anniversary elf.
hOpe to see you good everyday.
i promise to stay happy and i will try my best to.
no need worry...
iloveyou.

haix.

2008-09-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

haix.
-.-
do you believe happy ending?
do you believe forever?
do you believe in trust?
do you believe in promise?
can you believe?
haix.
hax.
haix.

2008-08-15T05:16:00.000-07:00

Current mood: moderate.x:

reach home at 1.30.so early canzxzxzx.-.-
was hungry.
then hit bed and sleep till 4plus. so wont feel any hunger.hee
re-taking chinese O level.
ho.next week prelims.
hopefully can do better:D
nah.
i feel satisfied.
but i will work harder(:
sorry anna for making fun of the army pics.wahha.sorryx_x
sorry ying too luh.heh.really inspiring mah(:
nice pics taken laaaaaa.
please dont put my ugly pics canzxzxz.teeee.x:
tsk.
elf,i was so touch can.with your msg-.-
glad that you will treasure that-.-
2 years le.grow up hor.hahahax.
loves.

will be busy these few days.(:
takecare people.
much loves,

carina♥

2008-08-11T08:21:00.000-07:00

everyday. was a sad day for me.
i wonder, when can i laugh like crazy, be the past, who i am.
i ...im very scared.
haix. i hate/dislike myself.
tomorrow.
i dont wish to cry.
haix.
im sad.
cheer me up please.
bye.

bf, where are you.

i need you.

stop leaving me alone.

2008-08-10T08:22:00.000-07:00

heyss..
woke up at 9, cause got another bad dreams.-.-
then off to maths tuition at 10.
wohoho.
off home at 12 and did my house work.
bath and blah.
then off for english tuition at 2.
after class, teacher was really great(:
she will be preparing for us many worksheet compre:D
then,headed to bugis with her to met her cousinssss.
you know what!!!
movie tickets sold off.
then we headed to marina.
6.40 then the movie start.
so shop shop here and there.
have fun indeed:D
"Money not enough 2" is nice and touch can.
it worth to watch:D
cause i was touch by it:D
then accpny me home @ 10plus.
ho.then two bro play with me "WET HAT"canzxzxzx.
all my body sooooo WET now.yucky.-.- phew.
anyway,family and friends are the best:DDDDDDDDD heepee.
bf, stay strong alright:D take care.
im fine.dont worry for me.

im sooooo hungry:(

2008-08-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY S'PORE(:

dummy.dumb dumb.
everyone is sleeping now.=.-
and im so bored.
eyes pain.
but i cant go to sleep.
everyone chatted with me till half-way and went silent.
they fall asleep so fast luh.
even ying too.call half way & didnt call me back-.-
im so freaking bored i tell you.
idont dare to sleep.
cause i dont wish any nightmare tonight please.
nah.
chatted with egg tart.
heh.sorry sorry.dont keep on sob sobs pls.
i know that friends are here with me.

probably.
this is the best.
i cry with no tears left.
why am i torturing myself in this way?
maybe in the first place, i was wrong.
iloveyou still.
but.there is no sign or anything.
i dont wanna to wait...................
how can you leave me alone.
how can you.
did you ever stand in my shoes.
& once again,give me a thought.

im afterall a girl

a girl who need your love:'(

2008-08-08T22:17:00.000-07:00

got a nightmare.
& i shouted help & scream.
sorry dad to wake you up.

i cry le.
dont know how strong can i still be.
i scared i could no longer hold on there.

i know that everyone was upset about their prelims.
so do i.
but, asking yourself .
do you really want to give up this way?
have you be beaten down by this?
do you wanna to upset those who hope to see you success?
have you ever give a thought to others?
give your best for the last lap.
if you believe you can.you can.
everything gonna up to you.
its your decision anw.
but, how i wish you dont give up.

once again, although i feel lonely.
its okay.
tidy up your mood & put in your best for coming "N" level
i hope to see your fighting spirit soon.

i wanna say .......................
there is something,
i've lose faith,
i've lose ....,
im looking forward for the best.
goodbye.

its you.i wannna see you stay strong.
never allow you to give up.
i believe you can.
you're smart isnt it?
just dont give up.
im always here,
if you need me...
love.

2008-08-08T05:14:00.000-07:00

heyhey.
back home & do my housework.
& headed to blah.
till 6plus around 7 then reach home.
chatted with her along the way home.
it really make me feel better.
i dont know what is love exactly about.
ya. maybe.i doubt so.
but.i know i love you.
if really cant...continue.
shall we had a good chat.
i really wish to know you day by day.
what you're are thinking about.pls share with me.
-.-
thanks jingmei for helping.
& thanks ying.
thanks anna.
thanks gracelu.

thanks grandson(brandon).

take good care of yourself & others alright,
thanks everyone nah.

hey.guys, cheer up.
& enjoy national day tomorrow.ha

not celebrating tomorrow.
sorry s'pore.but. wish s'pore a happy birthday(:
cause having tuition(:
ho.

im saddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.........
but. trying...................
cheerup cheerup.

i've got a decision.
no more tears dropping please,
heh.

2008-08-08T05:02:00.000-07:00

My childhood memories.only a few pics.

but i treasure it..................(:

i was lost since young.....-.-

elder bro & CARINAAAAAAAAA......-.- look like a boy norh.

i live in m'sia since young. but.im a singaporeannnnnnnn.

teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

hey.
get back result.
really really very sad for my result.
dont wish to say anything.
im speechless.
cause i know i had done my best.
cry?
i know that it can't help anything.
its fact.
please accept it carina.
yea.
gracelu, we shall work hard for our physic alright(:
dont cry.smile.
thanks for anna msg & mr ng cheers.
chat with yingying in class.
really hope that we can do well in "N".
haix.
there are many things i wish to say.
but.no one knows................................
really tired of crying.
let me stay happy please.
off to tampines with ying.
you know what!;/
two blur queen wanted to eat subway. but cant find.
thanks to her luh huh.
off to eat mac instead.-.-
ho. raining.
how i wish to stand under the rain and cry! @_@
hohoho.

26 more day to go.
hopefully hopefully.

i need a listening ear please.
hahahahha.heh.

carina will learn her mistake,
instead of cying.
thanks for the caring people.loves.......

i got something to say.

i wanna sit down & have a chance to talk to you

there is something not right.

you know & i know.

before it getting worst.

please.

i dont wish to live in a miserable world.

2008-08-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

there is a secret that i had kept it with myself for years.
its something bad.
mum told me something
whch happen to my cousin, same age with me.
how i wish to go m'sia now.
haix.
dear cousin, take care yourself alright.(:
come over here soon.ha.i will keep you accompany:D
dont worry.

2008-08-06T01:41:00.000-07:00

♥ question for the day.
1)how are you today?
♥ fine(:
2) what are you doing right now?
♥ er. nothing.
3) what are your current mood?
♥ ee. feeling down,due to stomach pain.x_x
4) what are your fav. colours?
♥ er. pink?. i dont know.-.-
5) Are you feeling bored right now?
♥ uh huh.damn bored.-.-
6) Are you a boy or a girl?
♥ girl-.-
7) who do you want now?
♥ er. no one-.-
8) Are you feeling lonely?
♥ nah.i dontknow.
9) What are your wish now?
♥ To pass "N" level and go sec 5.
10) Do you think your wish will come true?
♥ er. hope so.
11) Are you missing someone?

♥ yea.
12) Who do you think you are?
♥ hm. i dont know.
13) how many family member in your family?
♥ er.5.
14) Are your heart occupied by someone?
♥ er.yea.
15) what is your dreams?
♥ er. alot.
16) Are you a happy person?
♥ er. depend.

2008-08-06T01:36:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey.
you know what?
prelims over.(:
ho. felt a little joy..
but. "N" level coming soon next:D
tomorrow getting back papers.
fear x: haix. had to face it anyway
im so tired.
heh.
stomach not feeling well:'(

hey people.
re-linked soon yea:D
sorry sorryX:
heeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-01T00:53:00.000-07:00

hey.
suppose not to be back for blogging.
but........................................................
im still back.hohohoho.xOxO
heh.
Prelims was -.-
haix.
whatever what results turned out.
i should just accept it whole heartedly.:D
i hope i wont cry over my result please.
heh.
these few days was really studying.......
stress. family care for me so much.
& i appreciate them.
nah.
wanted to cry out loudddddddd.
dont know for what reasonn.:D
im not cry baby canzxzxzxzxzx.
but i love to.
heh.saw girls, then gary at cp today.
that gary very tssssssssssk canzxzxzx.-.-
hahahhaha.
im so tired.
do anyone know?
hey.
carina is tired tired tired.
extreme extreme tired.
hohohox:
but, still, study is a need.
gambatee everyone for the rest of paper.
im going to...................................................
chionggggggggg. rushhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
hahahhahahahha.
bye bye.
goodluck

happy birthday mr chong:D

with love,
carina (: bleh

2008-07-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

hey.
last post from me, before striving hard for Prelims and N level.
another sad story today.
i dont know what else is coming nex?.
i can no longer take the pain im suffering everyday.
once? twice?.
what else you guys want me to do?.
hatred filled my heart.
saddness make me in grief.
happy?.i could no longer bring myself up?.
why must you treat me like this?.
am i in wrong.?.
i tell you.
i didnt ever betray you.
you make me feel deeply utterly hurtful.
i dont want it to happen.but it still happen.
problems are everywhere.
need you every sec,but you seems soooooo far from me.
can you feel that loneliness?
haizx.
nevermind.focus in your study.

oh. school was alright.
just that.got a great headache when i reach home.
feel like crying out loud.
screammmmmm like nobody business.
but i cant.
im in pain.

but.should study now.
will be back when prelims over.(:
goodluck.
and i promise i shall do my best for it.
dont worry.
carina is strong(:
heh.kekekekkehzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.hahahahahha

2008-07-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

shhhhhhhhhh.....................prelims is coming very very near.
heh.you know what.
school was fun & stress today.x:
nothing happen much.
off to ate KFC with her.
oh hoh.to that particular school,please mind your action please.
tssssk. should ask us before taking away right?.tsk-.-
its ok la.forgive & forget.(;
okk.
have to sacrifice something.
because prelims & N level are coming.
7 MORE DAYS TO PRELIMS!!!!
not going to use com., not going to watch tv, except 9o'clock one.heh
msg will be reply late.:D
should start studying now.

i've already tried my best to seek your forgiveness.
but. if you are still angry.then i really ........................
haix.
i've sorted things out.
& whatever it is.
its god decision.

love is un-predictable isnt it?
come & go.
peeps! @_@
treasure your love one.
if not, im sure & garantee you will regret:D
good bye....
good bye....
not to shed any tears anymore.
i really really didnt .....................

why must my life be so miserable.
why why why
im questioning myself everynight

stay strong meer bro(:
you can find someone better.

im waiting.bye.lovessssssssss.
good luck for prelims & N level.

2008-07-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

Picture speaks thousand words:D here you go:D...

4E.tees

4E.:D
Girls...
na,yy,chan,niao
na,yy,juan,niao,xin:D

hey hey.

happy racial harmony day:D
ho.
ST today was difficult.haiz.
but i did my best.
hmm.was under the rain again.-.-
then off to take LRT with B & YY.
my head are soo pain.
haizxzx.
today mood was bad.moody.x_x
anyway,i promise to stay happy.
give me time alright.thanks friends.
im in the wrong.im sorry.deeply sorry.
nah.
tomorrow will be a good day.hopefully.:D

2008-07-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

disappointment.
thinking of changing to live journal.
but need alot of time.
will change when im free.
i will never smile again.

am i in wrong?
yes.maybe i am.
hope your anger will go away soon.
sorry.
bye loves.

im thinking hard.
should i or should i not?
hope things will change
before i make a decision.

i promise i will not shed any tears anymore
forever & ever.
im tired of crying.
& when can i stop?

ST tomorrow.
goodluck people.
hopefully can pass.
byebye

2008-07-19T10:34:00.000-07:00

its hurt.
i can longer take the pain im suffering.
there is no trust between us.
why my life is so mess up?.
haizx.
forgive me.
goodbye everyone.
leave me alone.

were there be a colourful tomorrow?
can i still get the chance to watch the beautiful sun tomorrow?
are there anything waiting for me tomorrow?
will you love me more tomorrow?
im asking.....
is there a tomorrow?.x_x

2008-07-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

today.another day had past.
11 more days to go.& i kept reminding myself!-.-
boo.prelims!!!! im coming(;
i really really dont know what im suppose to do.
im contradict myself.x_x
saw faiz.chatted for awhile.& hope to see you back in sch again.
was under the rain just now.im really really not well.
nah. a lady is so damn kind man.
shelter us to the near by police station.she hold my hand to cross the road.
damn kind. thanks thank a lot.(:
ho.
i've got a great headache. s: awww..../:

what are you pissed off about?
we always cant share things together.
so tiring.
im sad to see you angry.

haix.
i dislike to be neglect by someone.
why cant i stop thinking of you.
why cant i be close to you.
why everytime we look @ each other like stranger.
why why why.
i feel so miserable.

alright.im very sick now.
headache,flu,cough & blah.
boo.bye.

2008-07-18T20:51:00.000-07:00

happy birthday:D
hoho.wake up early @ 8.00. then meet G,A,YY.
waited for gen for 1hours plussss.....-.-"
then headed to celebrate.
heh.sorry to dirty your face.:D
hope you enjoy yourself.

yesterday night.felt so lonely.
how i wish to find someone to chat with me,
how i wish someone could hugged me.
but.nonono.there's no one:'(
haha.haizxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.
im so tired.

mon science ST.
chem & phy.here i come(:
byebye.

2008-07-17T23:29:00.000-07:00

its sooooo funny.....:D big eyes,small mouth.X: rewind. that's not CARINA lim. heh
080708
racial harmony coming this mon.
teacher wanted us to wear different race costume.
which i really dont like:'(
heh.
but maybe going out this sun with G,A,YY, to shop.(:
hur.
should start counting down for PRELIMS.
haix.
just try my very best(:
hohoho.
shall study & not blogging.=.-
im disappointed.

god,please ..
please let me stay happy.(:

i dont know what should i do.
can anyone tell me?.

hApPy BiRtHdAy in Advance
l.x.w.(: we're friends.
& i hope that you can find someone better
i hope you can stay happy always(:
smile.god bless..wishes.:D

2008-07-17T01:51:00.000-07:00

LOVE is something sweet.
something sad.
hur.LOVE is un-predictable.
i cant ask anything much.
i dont know whether there is LOVE.
i can no longer feel anything.
people keep asking,
& what can i replied them?.
im asking.do you still love me?.
if yes.hold me tight,before i decided to leave your side.
if no.there is nth to said about.

at this point of time.
i hope that i can leave LOVE aside.
sorry.if i've been too cold towards our relationship.
but.what i want is initiative.
if no ones speak,we remain silent.(:
love, i love you.

how can i concentrate & focus in my studies? im asking ......

2008-07-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

its call "FRIENDSHIP"...❤

170708

I got a shocked by joshua in chinese lesson todayX;
tsssk.hahaha.its okay.i know someone ask you to did that.

...❤ 12 more days left for prelims.

hohoho.X: im damn stress.-.-

iloveschool.:D

150708

Briefly describe this special,sad & happy day of mine(:

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR.(: ...❤

cousin from m'sia came over and stay at my house.

hohoho.chatted with them.& it feel so great with cousin la.

then off to visit their mum.i feel so heart ache watching them cry.

& i cry too(: heh

i will pray hard that their mum will be fine soon.very soon.dont wory gal.:D

2008-07-16T06:12:00.001-07:00

hey hey.
blog got error.sorry for the inconvenient:D
heh.
today school was fine fine(:
Fnn is greatttt(:
hahahahahaha.
off out to kou foo with ying to have my dinner.
saw gary, and blah.
hahahaha.funny.
was what!!!
ying say got a man take video of me eating luhh.
humph.-.-
but no evident neh(: tees.its ok.
hahahaha.
im still sick.boo.:D
ying make a new nick for me."wall"
hahahaha.cause she is talking to the wall.hohohoX:
school tomorrow(:
byebye.

2008-07-14T07:49:00.001-07:00

2008-07-14T03:30:00.000-07:00

today was neutral.
heh.
something happen at home.
then.
off out with them to play badminton.
i dont know how to play luhh.
but can learn from it.
saw ms tan(:
& chatted.was really worried for english.
haizxzx.
then saw faiz.
he shouted my name so loud.-.-
off home.
im really not feeling well.
sore throat.
flu.
headache.-.=
haizxzxzx.
unbearable pain.
who is there to shower me some care?.
heh.
tired.byebye.

*hey.you two.remember our drinks.wakakaka.
our badminton betX:
bye(;

btw,hp got pro.
i will reply msg soon if i can:D loves.

2008-07-14T02:29:00.000-07:00

Question for the day:

1) single or taken?
taken.
2)Are you happy staying with him?.
uh huh.yea.
3)both of you often quarrel?
hmm.sometimes.
4)what you like about him?
he is damn stubborn.(:
5)who is he to you?.
er.someone important?.
6)is he your no.1?.
uh.in my heart.yes.
7)do he trust you?
i dont know.but.i trust him:D
8)is he good looking?
errrr....to me yes.ok nah.
9)how long would you want to last?
as long as possible.
10)what is his favourite colour?
brown?.uh huh.
11)do he love you?.
er.ask him.
12)if there is a chance, what would you like to tell him?
hmm.dearest.i dont know whether this is love.
i promise you that i will stay with you forever.
i hope that i could keep my promise.
you had given me everything.
you had be a good bf.:D
i had entrust my heart heart for you.
please take care of it.(: ilu.

2008-07-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

hey.helloo.
today was kinda boring:D
i dont know what to study for maths.
boo. but hopefully can pass tomorrow ST.
im gonna to fell sick.x:
not feeling well.humph.-.-
feel that im lost suddenly.
really lost.
goodbye.

2008-07-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

hello hello.
today maths tuition is very fun nehzxzxzx.x:
our tutor keep laughing at us luhh.
cant blame. we are so funny(;
ilovemaths.

hohoho.
saw dear on the way home.x:

im so boredeee.
i wanna study.
but. the atmosphere is not right(:
hahahahha.

haizxzxzx.
finally ying2 think through.
oral had over.
what we're looking is to do better for coming prelims & 'N' level.
whatever it is.
it's our fate.:D
god had help us to plan our future.
so we have to accept it, with our whole heart.
even if ITE, we can still do our best over there right?.
hahaha. just know that we had done our very very best.:DD

dont talk about love matter with me.
talk with me something serious(:
its study. im thinking.im worrying for my studies now!!!

its dear the only only one in my heart.
no matter how much he hurt me, im still in love with him.
because he had been apart of my life.
i had entrust my heart to him and hope he will truly tresure it:D

bye.

2008-07-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I shall never give up, I shall never give up!
I must continue, I must continue!
I know my Goal is ahead, And I am destined to reach my Goal.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme

oh hi hi peeps(:
today school was alright.
always having fun chattering with friends.
before oral starts, i was really nervous.
but. i still tried my best.
i knew that i didn't do very well.
but, at least i still give a try.
all my hardwork and efforts for this N level, i had already shown it.
today oral.
i can say that it was average.
but.for the conversation part,
it was really difficult..
i dont know what the invigilator say and im not sure.
im a person who talk before thinking.
i really dont know what is it.haha.
what over is over.
whether i can make it or not.
it's depend.(:
as long as i know that i had put in my effort.:D

goodluck and all the best for the others taking oral this monday.
do your best ya(:

im really tired.
haizxzxzx.
thinking too much.
& im speechless.x:

everything will be alright.
hopefully:D

byebye.
heh.
monday having maths ST and POA test.
hohoho.
shall study:D

2008-07-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

hey.
nothing much to post about.
having oral exam tomorrow.
hopefully everyone can do well(:
im really nervous. really.
headache.x:
heh.
study hard people.
goodluck goodluck.
have to go study.
byebye:D
god bless.

2008-07-09T04:24:00.000-07:00

hellooooooo
hmm.
reach home at 5plus.
cause have to complete fnn coursework by today.
ooh.nervous.x:
goodluck to everyone for the oral.
friday is my turn(:
hahahaha.
hopefully can have lots of idea on that day.
nah.
sorry shameer to dirty your pants.hah.
but you kick me back can.
so fair la.heh.
i want to .......

haha.
thursday tomorrow(:
byebye.xp

2008-07-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

hello hello.
learn to be independent today.
not being self-centre.
& learn as you live forever(:
heh.
oral is in two more day time.
haha.
im nervous.x:
hopefully i can do well in it.(:
POA test is also conduct on this friday.
haha.
shall study.
what's going on next week?
tuesday- listening comprehensin
wednesday- Geo test
hohoho.
i can feel that stress is coming-.-
but. i will still put in my best.

today saw felicia chen at cp.
they catching a film.hah.
then saw gary,james,leslie and blah.
smile.
then saw brothers.hah.hohoho.x:

my eyes are aching.
gonna fall asleep.(:
tomorrow will be a nice day:D
nite nite.
turn in early peeps.Xp

2008-07-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

hey.helloooo.

nothing special happen today.

practice oral with ying2.

always have fun when im with her la.

heh.

saw mr ng with others.

hur.he is so funny canzxzx.-.-

nah.

school tomorrow(;

hopefully can sleep early tonight.

it's time to study.(;

& time is running short.!!!

i love everyone.:D

smiley.

byebye.

2008-07-06T07:44:00.000-07:00

hey.
learn something today(;
we people regard our resources as infinite.
humph.
must help to save the earth nah.tees.;D
& i learn.
relationship come and go.
there is no forever.
once being together, we must treasure.
once let go, dont cry over it.(:
&& i learn.
appearance is not important.
the most important is:
the person must have kind heart(:
this is what im looking for.

heh.
english tuition today(;
teacher is very cute,
we were all in a jubilant mood when having her class:D
hohoho.
then do poa h.w. with ying2.
laughter again canzxzxx.-.-
she always threaten me la.
putting my ugly and funny pics in her blog.humph.-.-
then.
suddenly mood swing.
boo.-.-
haizxzxzx.
im in doubt.
whether should i continue or not.
-.-
i dont like guys who flirt.
simply just cant take it.
i should keep everything to myself.

god, let me stay happy always and always.
i wanted to treat everyone good.(;

i hope i can be able to faced my fate, my life.
there a secret where no ones know.
this secret make me feel miserable eveytime.

nth.im gratified with what i have now.
thanks god.
byebye. smileeee.#:-)

2008-07-04T08:58:00.000-07:00

❤HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY
TO ONG YING YING!:D
hey.
hope that you can always stay smart & happy.
wish & hope all your dreams can come true.
wish that you can be able to overcome any obstacles.
continue to study hard & i know you can do it.
hohoho.
you are a nice & sweet friend i got nah.
heh.
4years and still counting la.
we had been through saddness,happiness & blah blah blah.
hahahahha.
my forever love buddy.
my forever girlfriend.
my forever lesbian.x:
teehees.
nah.
smile always.
god bless you.(:
ilove you.
070508:D
❤

it was 12plus.
was chatting with her on phone now(:

2008-07-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

hey.
back.
heh.off to bukit gombak.
i ownself go can.(:
heh.so clever nah(:
fall asleep on the bus-.-
heh.
celebrate ying2 birthday in advance with her mother.
hur.
take pics, play cake with her & blah blah blah.
my face got stain all because of her nah-.-
heh:/
then headed back to sengkang & off to hougang again.
ying2 accompany me la.
heh.so nice of her(:
then accompany mum home.teehees.
thinking of what to give ying2 tomorrow la.boo.-.=
heh.

currently chatting with bobo on msn.
he is sooooo -.-
was happy that he msg me(;
heh.
laughs.

im tired la.
poa w.s 2, i got problem la.
contact me & teach me if you guys know hw to do.
heh.thanks thanks.

nitenite.(:

2008-07-03T23:09:00.000-07:00

hey yo.
happy youth day people(:
nah.
dont worry for me my dearrrr friends.
with you guys around,i will be fine.i think?.
heh.
haizxzxx.
i know im giving the sad face.
but.im trying.im trying really hard to stay cheerful.
but.maybe its takes some time.
hmm.
i love you still.
but.
haizxzxz.
i dont know la.
im trying to take the initiative.
but.nth is going on.-.-

going out now.
heh.
byebye(:

2008-07-03T05:58:00.000-07:00

********helloooo********
HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY TO EUGENA DARL(:
6years dear friend(: stay happy girl:D

stressful-.-
off to ngee ann poly with girls and boy,sec 5 too.(:
hohoho. play game & know more friends from other sch,
tee.over 100+ people over there nah.
well, although they didnt get in to the final,
but they did their best nah.
hohohoho.i wanna go POLY!!!X:
i was damn funny over there.laughs.
saw stephen over there.hihi.
off home & im super tired.
super super tired.
didnt really eat anything today.
haizxzx.

oral left 8 more days to go.
prelims left 26 more days to go.
'N' level left 61 more days to go.
gonna study study study.

perfect start. but hurtful ending.
i think i know what am i suppose to do.
i wish you happy and stay happy forever.
hoping each day that we can be back like last time.
but.maybe im dreaming.hah.too naive.
haizxzxxz.
if.
if our realtionship is strong.
if we have trust in each other.then all this thing will not happen.
i trust you.& hope you trust me too.
i really love you.
i was sad.sad till i cant even drop a single tears anymore.
its all depend on you.
i wish to last.
but it seem.................
haizzxxz.
i dont wish to end up like silent break.
i dont know what is that either.
if you are happy, i will follow your own suit.
i will understand. i will wait for you to be back.
& wait for our relationship to be back.

byebye.
homework!!!!.
life will never be easy for me.:(

2008-07-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

helloooooo
heh.
competitive.x:
heh.
stressssssss luhhhh.haizxzx.
oral coming.
& im the 1st one.heh.
will try my best for it.(:
good luck dear for your oral tml.talk more ya.god bless.
haizxzxzx.
mayb or mayb not going to ngee an tml.heh.
back home @ 5 plus today.
fnn coursework neh.
heh.tired.tired.

currently mood is so not good.
hahahahha.
but.hmm..nbm neh.

oh ya.
bon voyage h.w.z!!!.
teehees.come back safely ya.
have a nice trip(:
tckare tckkare.

heh.
headache.
byebye.

2008-07-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

illness.
it's un- endurable.
life.
i cant face the reality.
in greatest pain now.
heart & internal organ.
boo.
i......
feel....
like......
good bye.

2008-07-01T00:40:00.000-07:00

sad day for me again.:'(
hmm.
PE today was fun.
im sorry didnt throw well.haix.
pissed of about something.
but,its ok la.its your mouth any way girl(:
have Maths lesson.Prelims left 1 more month.
haizxzxz.
then LCE lesson.
tees.im a intrapersonal.ha.

haizxzxzx.
she talk to me,
ask me abt our relationship.
both of us ans dont know.
she ask me.
wheather i love you?.
she ask me to ans from the bottom of my heart.
my ans is:yes.
i did love him.
she ask me to solve the problems we have.

haizxzx.
i really wanted to solve.
but i really dont know what exactly is happening.
dear.
what am i suppose to do.
i really dont know.
im sad.
& i really really cant focus in whatever i do.
why should our relationship become like this.
you say before,
we've endured our share of pain.
bigger mountains may lie ahead,
but together there is no hill we cant tread.

i really wanna to solve our problems.
but.
if you're tired.
i will understand.
will god let us stay a longer time more?.
i wish that one day i can talk to you ,
i wish one day we can spend time tgt more.
just wanna say thanks everything.
i love you:'(
should i or should i not?..

❤dearest.
couldnt bear to let you go.
i dont know how much you love me.
but just want to let you know how much i love you.
whatever whats the decision will be.
whatever what will happen.
promise me.
take care of yourself.
stay happy & be the cute elf.
stay stubborn.& i knew you wont change(:
there are still alot alot alot of things i wanna say.
.
.
.
but.
i ❤ you.

2008-06-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

Life’s a gift for you to send
Life’s a gift for god to end
Life’s a gift now you’re with me
Life’s a gift for all to see
Life’s a gift when love is true
Life’s a gift when times look blue
Life’s a gift with the one you trust
Life’s a gift even if UN just
Life’s a gift a ray of sun
Life’s a gift though your heads held to a gun
Life’s a gift when its handed on a tray
Life’s a gift even though it’s always on display
Life’s a gift it’s hard to understand how
Life’s a gift so take advantage of it now

my life seem miserable.
but.
i will stay happy with you guys stay with me.

2008-06-30T03:00:00.000-07:00

How many ex-stead do you have?
❤er.1?.
Are you now still in a relationship?
❤yes.
Do you like youself?
❤yea.if not who will like me-.-
Are you wearing shoes?
❤no.-.-
what are you doing now?
❤typing-.-
What will you be doing tomorrow?
❤studies.(;
Eyeliner or mascara?
❤mascara:D
Have you ever kiss anyone?
❤uh huh.dear.
Have you hug anyone within the past 24hours?
❤nah.nope.
Who is your first kiss give to?
❤nah.elf.
How old are you?
❤16 this yr?.tees
Is the weather fine today?
❤nah.its damn HOT.(;
Last miss call from your handphone?
❤ying2
What does your second text message say?
❤0.O no idea.hp not with me.x:
What colour is your room paint?
❤er.super light green?.idk.
What colour are your eyes?
❤black?
What is your mood now?
❤normal?.so bored-.-
What are you wearing now?
❤T-shirt.shorts.
What is your dream?
❤ be a successful lady(:
What are you thinking now?
❤studies;D

2008-06-29T23:20:00.000-07:00

hey.
school today is alright.
ST was okay okay.
not sure nah.but did my best(:
stomach not feeling well.:(
heh.
ended sch at 1.
off to eat with that funny.
jokes along the way & saw dad-.-
he gave my keys.tees.forget to bring again.
didnt eat much.
& left almost full of mee.
heh.no appetite nah.
then saw jeffrey's mum.
chatted with us.& feel like crying.
heh.
his mum just wanted him to do well in his studies.
haizxxzx.
all mum cares for their childs.
& hope we can appreciate it.tees

had to complete POA w.s. now-.-
& my stomach is in greattte pain.aargh
heh.i want to stay happy.

work towards N level & prelims(:
Oral starts today.good luck people.(:
talk more ya:D

loves.byebye

2008-06-29T01:21:00.000-07:00

i dont want & i dont wish to shed any tears anymore.
feelings had fade.
all the promises had gone.
acting like strangers always,
makes me feel tired.
neither of us want to make the first step.
so our relationship will remain like this.
im moody.you are also moody.
do we still have love between us.
maybe we shall have a talk.

shy?
yes.both of us are shy.
but i really dont wish this to be an excuses.
haizxzx.

whatever it is.
im waiting.
waiting that one day, we can be like a lovely couple.
waiting for one day, we can talk in school.
waiting for one day, we can spend time tgt.
waiting for one day.........................................

but. i really dont wish to say goodbye.

im asking.when can i be happy?.

2008-06-28T02:37:00.000-07:00

headache for the whole day.haix haix.
off to tuition alone.ying2 cant make today.
didnt had mood for it.but lesson still continue.
saw salihin and blah blah blah.
-.-
haix.
im feeling that way.
if we continue to be like this.
haizx.
take care of yourself.
i know that i can no longer be happy.
i cant get rid of saddness.
im sorry.

family prob ytd.
haizxzxzxxzzx.
again & again.

tired,
dont wish to continue my life like this.
no happiness, but saddness.

im dying.

2008-06-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

Carina(:

Ophelia,avory,anna,shan shan

hey.im so dumb.tees!

DANCERS.SENIOR!(:

Ophelia,silin,avory,carina,anna

carina,avory,anna,silin,ophelia

yea.dancers.(;

2008-06-27T03:14:00.000-07:00

heyhey.
was nervous to go on stage today.xp
i found out that i did had e courage to face u again.
was so ps today.#O*#$@!!! -.- hohoho.
DANCE STEP DOWN CEREMONY TODAY(:
should i be sad or happy?
heh.dont know-.-
played passing game with four feet.
was super blur and dumb la.
heh.i get it for two times.laugh.
suppose to give anna,but im slowwwwwwwwww.-.- boo.
hahaha.1st time was nth & 2nd time had to create a song to junior bing bing.
heheh.teehees.my creative.;D ms simion & mrs lee take my fool pics when im singing.X:
damn ps.ha.
have fun.definitely!
little tokens from teacher & sweet card and apple pie,done it by them.tee.loves
have PIZZA.& have to serve them.-.- oh oh.im gonna gain weight.Xp
wanted to cry.but i control!:D
back home with o & a.
hahaha.
O ask me about me & him.
hah.i said something.& she agree with me.(;
should treasure luh uh O.hahaha
pics will be uploaded soon, waiting for O.
hahahaha.
nowadays.very sad & emo.hahaha
hey.im no longer a baby.ha.& rmb my 10cents.wahahahhaa.bleh.
off to brought food and drinks for bro.
saw blah blah blah at basketball courts.
dont know their name.tees.forget.hello.bye.no manners la me, then walk away,without hearing what they want to say.sorry.x:
hohoho.tired tired tired.

i will miss dance definitely.
the training,stretching & all the laughter.
hahaha.the SYF training will be a memorable one.heh
bruises everywhere.x:
dance is part of my life.
studies is part of my life.
friends are part of my life.
family are part of my life.
u are part of my life.
i dont want to think any sad things.shoo shoo.
teehees.

cute?.fun?.pretty?.nice?.kind?.thoughtful?.
nonono.you're wrong.

i wanna to to be HAPPY.can i ?. can i?. who is making me happy?.=(

NOW. IS N LEVEL AND PRELIMS TIME.
HAVE TO FOCUS.NO DISTRACTION PLS.
SILENT.
DO WELL FOR IT. i will.

2008-06-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

there is no point of crying.
whatever had say, had done, is over.
cried.
but no more caring from you.
disappointed.
but its ok.
maybe we should do something.
sad.but i still had to faced it.
im facing all the saddness all alone.
tired. can no longer take it.
trying to think positve way.but i cant.
no mood today.scolded bro.im sorry.
thanks for the caring friends(:

byebye.

2008-06-23T04:25:00.000-07:00

tees
congrats to ying2 & xw.
hmm.
prelims is coming nearer.
very very near(;
school today is alright.:D
release at 1p.m.
complete english oral with ying2 and joycelene.
was super funny.
felt so exhilarate when i was with them.
hees
off for longjohnsilver with her.
talk alots of craps.
& chit chit chat chat about something perverticX:
hahs
hair check tomorrow.
thermometer check tomorrow.
probably height & weight measurement tomorrow.(x
tees.
.
.
.
.
bye bye:D

thanks li chan & li juan for the present ya(:
won't eat it.hahaha.don't worryX:

2008-06-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

welcome JULY(:

hey hey peeps(:
school starts tomorrow(:
teehee.
will not post much after school had start:D
yes,will sleep early tonightX:
so longwinded!xP
tees.
3 more days is FRIENDSHIP DAY. ya ying2?.hey hey.
hahahahahhaa.
im feeling nervous,scared & happy.hohoho.
well, these holidays didn't actually enjoy myself much,
accept the trip to GENTING & my sweet 16 BIRTHDAY(:
heeeeee hah.i love you guys:D

hohoho.feeling exhilarating now.keke.^^"
well, enjoy your last few mins of holiday.
i have to go to sleep.nite nite darl.

****bye to JUNE holiday****
and welcome prelims and "N"level.
study hard and study smart:D

2008-06-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

2008-06-21T10:25:00.000-07:00

hey hey.Xp
that naughty boii send me to tuition again.
i was shy today.hohoho.(X
school gonna start really soon.
have to pack up my holiday mood,sleepy mood too. ^^"
& get ready to study!!!(:
i know that stress is coming.DEFINITELY!:D
so have to prepared for it uh.

'N'LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL will be on second week of school!!!
hope and pray hard that can do well for that(:
& hope everyone can do well for that too:D

h.w had finally finish.but got some blank!(X hees
no matter what result i will get. no matter how tough the road is to be for me.
i believe in myself, i can accept it and i know that there is nothing can beat me down(:
hohoho.hopefully:DDDD

be the best of yourself.
live LIFE the FULLEST(:

GOD had given me everything,
i know and i will appreciate it.
thanks GOD.

nite nite peeps.x; sweet sweet dreams.teehee:D
loves.fullest love from me(:

2008-06-20T01:06:00.000-07:00

Why can’t we say the word
The hurtful word goodbye
How long can I linger
How much longer will I cry
Have I played the fool
Been a fool long enough
Yes, I do know this,
Yet good-byes are really rough
A word I do not likeI would rather say g’day
Waiting, patiently, lingering
Still on my mind
you preyI know it will be hard
Good-byes are what I fear
Still open without closures
I dry up another tear
One day it will come
Maybe soon that fateful day
I still think its difficult
Good-bye's so hard to say
sigh.

hubby,i love you.
hope that there is no more saddness.
dont moody.dont you moody again.

I'd love to wish you, 'happy everything',

I want to kiss you, 'bless everything'

I need to sing, 'Happy everything'

I want to shout, 'Happy everything', to you

The sun is out, bright blue is the sky.

nothing out of place, were all gonna try 'Happy everything'

People sing.......'Happy everything'

The priest chant..'Happy everything'

The kids cry........'Happy everything'

Everyone wants..'Happy everything'

Everything is happy, we are all so glad.

Everything is happy, please don't be so sad.

everyone should just stay happy.hahahahahahaha

we should learn to accept failures and look forward.

life is sometimes so amazing.

A journey of a thousand miles, starts with the first step in the right direction.:D

im learning not to be sad again(:

laughs.

2008-06-19T10:40:00.000-07:00

hohoho.
everyday slp late.
cant take it.X:
tsssssk............
currently chatting with boii on msg & some friends on msn.
they are funny.hohoho.
_________.___________
i wanted to sleep.
nite nite.
dont make me sad again.
thanks friends for the cheers!:D
you guys let me know & feel im not alone.Xp

2008-06-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

im not happy.not happy.not happy.
im sad.sad.sad.sad.
feel like being left alone.
i cant breath anymore.
if you love me,dont let me feel that im alone.

hatred.dislike.
boo.i want these to get off from my life.
LOVE?.
im contradicting.
can we always be that lovely?.
i will leave if you no longer need me:'(

do you know how sad am i.
do you know what i need most.
do you know ..............................

i dont know.
:'(
once again you let me cry.

2008-06-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

heh.
im tired of everything.

2008-06-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

-.- off to sch for oral with ying
saw him & him.
making us like a thief.hide here & there.
ha.have to speak eng from now on.
teehee.speak to me in engish ya ppl:D
-.-off to cut hair again.
im sad.its short-.-
& im not in e mood now:)...
sigh.

2008-06-16T03:53:00.000-07:00

hey.crazy carina are their fans:DD
hurhur.
handsome & prettayyeX:
they let me feel heartthrob

isn't it?agree:/ hohohoOU QUAN
GUI GUI
AH BEN
WANG ZI

2008-06-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

Wandering in darkness grope,
Finding not a glimpse of hope.
Fingers touch to find my way,
Each foot fall, my heart betrays
The fear which drives me through the day.

Suddenly the ground is lost,
Flailing arms as body's tossed.
Splashing down in crimson pool,
The warm embrace is much too cruel,
I curse this lowly, wretched fool.

Floundering in this self made hell,
Warmth increasing as I dwell,
Within the confines I create,
Screaming as myself berate,
Giving in to this, my fate.

i know that there is NO eternity love or blah...
& i know that i should accept my fate.(:

i cant decide everything,
because god is helping me in all these

im in fear that im gonna to leave this beautiful world,
perhaps.in some day.

sometimes life is so interesting.
but sometimes it can be boring.

i wanted & hope each of my everyday life can be meaningful
but it seem so.....-.-

nah.maid called me this early morning.
she told me that she miss us lots.
through the phone i feel so heartache.
thought that i can forget about her.
but 4yrs, simply make me cant lose her.
she's in taiwan now.working.
hopefully she is doing fine(:
i miss you badly.cry.

heard ghost stories again.
its really unbelievable & unpredictable.
hey.do you believe there is ghost around?.
uh huh.im not sure abt thisX:

got a sudden urge to do something silly.hehs.
feel so down & discomfort.
tsk.
i told myself "life" is like this hey!
hahahahahhaa.
heeeeeeeee hah.
dumb dumb:D

RE-VIEWED(: are there true friend?

uh huh!

they are one...............

When i look into your eyes,

i see the vastness of infinity.

And there you are, just like me
Existing since Eternity.

So when I say you are my friend,
I'm hoping it will never end.
To make it last and not abate
We really must Communicate.

To be friends for eternity
We must strive for more Affinity.
As well as this, there must be
A sharing of Reality.

With these increasing without end,
We could be Eternal friends.

2008-06-15T10:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY ANNI HUBBY(:
WE had been tgt for 1yr 10mth.hohoho.
hopefully can last long love:D

HAPPY FATHER DAY(:
mum,2 bros & me treat dad pizzaa.hahaha.
yummy neh.hope he had a wonderful day:D

hohoho.
today "you are the one" final.
tsssk.e guy who let me feel heartthrob never win e champion la.-.-
hahaha.its ok.(:
tml got dance briefing.
& i wanted & knee to slp now.
but sadden.i cant):
these holidays almost everyday slp late neh.
hohoho.
growing old.heheh.
1 more week to go.
hahahaha.
tartarX:
forcing myself to slp:D shoo shoo ya:D

2008-06-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

nah.
woke up 12 plus today & bath.
off to tuition with her.
off to cp first & to tuition.
hahahaha.
tutor was abit funny luhh.
all his jokes is "SO" funny canzxzx-.-
hurhur.
having lotts interest in maths.
but still abit lost when doing some ques.
uh huh.got to buck up(:
off home and do maths txt book ques.
alots neh.hahaha.
it lets me feel that N level is coming nearer.X:
hur.but its ok.i will do my best for it:D

have to revise through POA ,before i forget it.heh.
1 week more, sch re-open.(:
hahahaha.

whatever what obstacles im gonna to faced.
im going to walk through it.:DD
forgive & forget.

2008-06-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

hey sweet peeps.X:
teehees(:
today was bored.
hurhur.
saw hubby for at least 2 times today(:
hahaha.that elf.stop calling me sotong.-.-
off to mum shop with younger bro for hair cut.
saw kevyn & bridget & others.
kevyn say that bro is my boyfriend.
hahahaha.she cant imagine that bro had grew so tall over the years(:
heh.
did cut hair.but canot see that i had cut.
no difference..
hahahahahahahha.
off home & im so busy with house work.

im sorry lai sim.
cant attend the band concert tomorrow.
heh.probably next time neh(:

im just too tired nowadaysX:
heh.

i've learnt forget the past & look forward.
i've learnt to appreciate what i have now.
i've learnt do not take things for granted.
i've learnt to study hard & study smart.

hahahahahhaha.
im learning still:D
byebye.so damn boring la.hur:D

2008-06-11T04:29:00.000-07:00

sometimes i think.
is it fate trying to bring us together.
it seem so.
i really cant imagine it.
& i really cant take it.
ur words once hurt me so much.
cant bring myself to even look at u one more time.
being a friend is what im looking forward to.

2008-06-11T03:29:00.000-07:00

hey.
hahahaha.
school is going to reopen soon?.
i guess.!x:
hahahaha.
not much time left.
"N"level & prelims is coming nearer & nearer.
i will try my best for it.
uh huh.
off out today with groups of black guys & dear.
hohoho.jamming.X:
superrrr loud can:D
hahahahhahahahaha.
thay have talent in that luhh uh.
their music is nice man.hurhur.
then back to cp KFC.
dear dun like to eat vegetable luhh.
but i force.insist.& he ate it.hahahaha!X:
off home straight away without slacking with them.
cause have to do house work nah.heh.

i enjoy reading "Out Of Order" this story book.
its simply attract me with all the beautiful words inside & teenager life.
hahahaha.

im contradicting.
i scrowl.
dont know what to do.
i just want to focus in my studies ya:D
hopefully hopefully.(:heh.hurhur.

2008-06-09T09:51:00.001-07:00

hey helloooo peeps:D
hahahaha.
today was bored at home.
wanted to study.
but just dont have the mood to.
sadden.hahahaha
wanted go out.but everyone seems to be busy.
heh.im going to be crazy at home.
watch tv.sing k.slp.eat.housework.
if these type of days continue.
my holidays is so not meaningful!x:
hahahaha
its alright.
small boy wanted to meet me up some day.
to celebrate my birthday.hahaha.
but have to ask dear permission.hees.x:

alright.done something careless today again.
dear call me sotong again:D
he then elf laaaaa.hahahaha!xP

tomorrow having SS class.
have to study hard for SS too:D
jiayou(:

im moody nowadays.
im lazy nowadays.
& i just want to be alone.
hahahahaha.
(:
loves.

2008-06-08T10:28:00.000-07:00

oh.
i cant slp.
had a great chat with dear.
talk about breaking.
its hurt me.really hurt.
he let me feel that i cannot live without him.
haix.
but,dear,i love you.
may we last long.
i can see,can feel,can touch how much is your love to me.
i love i love & i really love u deeply.
zulhairi,thanks alot for everything.
my love for u will last.

2008-06-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

ying2 carina grace anna
fOur sweet girls:D
(xw,ur photo skills have to improve neh.haha.x:)

hey hello peeps!X:

birthday gonna over.

have to wait till next year:D

hahaha.

its ok.

i enjOy myself lots this year.

i love my friends really lotts.

& i know they are true & nice friends! no doubt.

bro & his friends bought me big chocolate cakes with my name,

& bracelet. (nice neh)

hahahaha.thx you.sweet of u guys:D

hahaha.

im really happy this year bdae.

thanks god for everything.

my only wish is to promote to sec 5 & pass my N level.

hoping all my friends to do well for N level too.

i want everyone to be happy.

family to be safe,no quarral.

thanks god.(:

lastly, carina enjoy herself.

thanks dear & friends.

i love u.(:

yea.im 16.16 neh:D wahahahaha.bleh!Xp

2008-06-07T03:05:00.000-07:00

hey.
hellooooo.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY tO myself
& everyone.
haahahahaha.
i wanna share my jOy with everyone.

07.june.1992
its CARINA lim shu hua birthday.
heh.
finally i had grow old,
sweet 16:D
hahahaha.

was little bored now.
cause nth to do.

off to meet dear & slack.
he very naughty can.
boo.but had a good time with him uh.
my hand hurt.ELF.xp
i love the present & card!<33

then off to tuition, have fun in maths. hahahaha.
thx tutor for the wishes!X:

then ying2 was rushing.dunno for what.
hahahaha.
i was really sotong luhh.
hahahaha.
was shock.
Grace,Anna,Ying2 & Xw was at the lift.
waterbomb.
my bottom got wet.
heh.grace,ying2,good aiming:D
nice cake & candle la.haha
i was really surprise.
& was really touch.
hahahahahahaha.
take pics,gave sweet present to me & they went off.
i love the picture(so sweet),the doll,the pencil box,bag,flowersss..)
& ying2 aunt,thanks for the shirt(:
u guys must have spent alots.thanks(:
loves<33

i was really touch.hahahaha.
what a memorable birthday i have this yr:D
home sweet home.
dad cook alot of delicious food for me luhh.
i appreciate it dad.love.
he given me a red packet too.
hahahahaha.loves<33

waiting for little bro & friends surprise.
hahahaha.

Thanksalotsto:DEAR,ANNA,GRACE,YING2,XW,SMALL BOY,BALA ,TOSH,REDZA,Js & others (:! my cute grandson(BRANDON,TERENCE,JOVIN.....& MORE), ah ma miss ur alotts.X: haha. GOD BRO (Ding kiong & Feng li ), & my loveleeys FAMILY.

you guys let me know & feel what is LOVE.
this yr will be a memorable one.
i was moved by ELF card.
i was moved by friends gave me the surprise.
i was moved by my family care & love me.
i was moved by everyone wishes.

although i do not have a lots of friends.
but, just a few, will let me feel elated.
they let me know that they do love & care for me.
i promise, i will be there for u guys too:D
thanks god for letting me know all these true & lovely friends.
i will appreciate them:D

All the present i love it alotts alotts.
words cant even describe my feeling towards u guys.
i appreciate for everything.
i love you guys.(:
its my pleasure to have u all as my friendsX:

terence:bon voyage,have a safe journey.& come back safely.god bless.& enjOy urself.misses:D

2008-06-05T22:38:00.000-07:00

i miss the past in a sudden.
how i wish to b like a baby,
no worries,
no doubt,
no saddness,
no troubles,
only LOVE from others.

i wanna thank you for all the wishes in advance!X:
i promise,
i will stay happy.:D
i love u guys:DD

2008-06-05T01:16:00.000-07:00

i was so touch by a girl.
which i always look on her negative side.
her story & her thoughts.
its all so meaningful.
everything happen with a reason.
& i just wanted to be friend with her.
just pray hard that she will be alright.

i started to learn how to let go
& treasure.
when the time come,
i should not hide it.
i will learn to accept it happily:D
i hope so.x:

let's treasure the close one beside you.
befOre it's gOne.
i tell you,u will reGret.
its hurts.

Dad,Mum,Brothers
i love you.
u let me feel so blissful to have such a nice family.
i promise,not to let u all down.
i will always be your good daughter,& sister!(:

My dear friends,
i love you.
im sorry & pls forget all my misdeed.
i have learn to be strong because of u guys accompany.
i will learn to treasure u my friends.
thanks for being my friends.
& let me know that friends are important.:D

my dear boii,
i love you.
im sorry to hurt u one time by one time.
i know that there is no forever love.
but, i just want to treasure each moment with you,
till the day come.
i know that i should learn to let go my hand,
if u wish to.
i promise,i will be a good girlfriend when we are still together.
its hurt me when we always treat each other so cold.
but i know it happen with a reason.
i did really have the thoughts of giving up this relationship.
but, i know that it is hard for us to get together.
we have been through many obstacles & got together.
once again, let me treasure u.
i love you.

to yOu, yOu & yOu,
im sorry.
really sorry.
& i dont know what could i say.
thx for everything.
& i started to depend on you.
i hope that everything will be good for u.
sorry to hurt u,
which i dun wish to.
my son, its great to know you:D

2008-06-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

o.O
off to sch with anna & ying.
ying2, we're in s'pOre not Genting canzxzx-.-
hahaha.
was bored.
ohh yea.
Oral.
OPEC!!!
Oral N level coming really sOOOOOn.
hOpe can dO well ya:D

im so lonely at home la.
hahahahaha.
everyone was Out.tsk.
nO dance again.
-.-
nex thurs then start:D
hahahahhaha.
alright.............
bro lovelyees friends gonna treat me sakae sushi neh.
hurhur.x: so nice.
hahahhahahahaha.

i wan some LOVE on my birthday.
family, friends, dear.
let me feel little LOVE, i will be satisfyX:

have tO start studying.revising.
&& prepare fOr 'N'level :DDD

2008-06-03T10:42:00.000-07:00

birthday?.

what i want?.

hahahahaha.

hmmmmm...

I WANT:

*pass my 'N' level with FLYING COLOURS

*pass my prelims with FLYING COLOURS

*promote to SEC 5

*friends to stay happy

*family to stay harmony

*to stay cheerful, no saddness luhh

*grandsonssss & god bros to stay happy

*every yr bdae to be a memorable one (if can)

*boii, to stay happy,dun moody uh. him to be guai. stay out from troubles.

*EVERLASTING love with boii

*to spent my everyday with him

*to be close to him,just a little,i will be satisfy

*i want you you you all to stay smart & happy.

no saddness uh.hahahahaha!x:

i know that i will leave u some day.

this coming sat,i dun nid anything.really.

jsut wan u to stay with me.

simple bdae will do:DDDD

& friends.

dun headache of what to buy.

hahahahha.

just a wish will do.X:

CARINA will appreciate it:D

2008-06-03T10:39:00.000-07:00

sometimes.i need to be alone.
sometimes.i feel that everything is meaningless.
sometimes.i really need you.
sometimes.i feel that i can longer continue.
sometimes.......................................................

2008-06-03T10:36:00.000-07:00

wang zi & gui gui
they super loving luhh!X:

ah ben & wang zi

they super cute neh!:X

2008-06-02T23:48:00.000-07:00

i love you.
hoping each day can get closer with you.
everytime when i have difficult in breathing.
i need you.
im suffering.
but no one knows.
i dont know what u're thinking.
but hope that u would share with me.
:/
maybe i shld focus in my studies.
maybe you no longer love me.
maybe i shld be initiative.
maybe .
i still love u deeply.
-_-
im studying.
i feel
sooooooo
borrinnnggggggg.
hhahahahahaha.
imu dear.

2008-06-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

hey!.
off to sch and found out that DANCE is on thurs!
humph!x:
anna and i was really blur laaa!.:D
hahahaha.
off to mac and sat down for a while with A maths students:D
hahaha.give present to friends:D
hope they like it.
i was bored bored bored!..:/
im learning to be independent
im learning to be strong
im learning not to depend on you
im learning not to drop a single tears, if u leave me
........................................................................................
i dont wanna my birthday to arrive.
its gonna to be a boring day for me i bet!:/
having tuition on that day.
i dont wish to get any surprise or others.
im tired of being left alone.
im facing many question?.
& i cant answer any.
just take it as a normal day:D
.......................................................................................
im tired tired tired.
i have no strenghs anymore
i could no longer hold my breath
& i could no longer feel the love
im hurt hurt hurt.
tears had dry.
heart had break.
all i want is a care:D
......................................................................................
hahahhaa.im crazy.
so boring.

2008-05-31T08:11:00.000-07:00

helloooooooo:D
hahahhahaha.
back from GENTING @ 10.30p.m
it's a nice trip:DD
i miss all the activities and fun!!
hahahahhaha.
i miss the ride *FLYING DRAGON*
i miss the ride *??????? thunder*
i miss all the thrill rides.:DD
i miss how we hide in the hotel!X:
hahahhahahahhahahahha.
i miss the 7 gals:D they are cute neh.
hahahahhaha.
was not feeling well over ther.
but..thx ying & friends lotts for the much caring:DD
did not eat much over ther.
haha.thx shammeer for helpin me with the food!
haha.room call was fun neh.
hahhaha.gals & gek hee friends all call @ mid nite.
crazzy neh.hahahhahaa
but it was really fun laa.
undescribable.?
but i was sad about other thing:DD

2008-05-18T11:02:00.000-07:00

hellooooo:DD
hmm..result..
didn't expect that i drop so much.
very sad.but no one knows.
but im really glad that i can at least pass!. thx god!:D
er..i will do my best for my N level!X:
have to focus on next Monday chinese paper.
nervous.excited.chinese result had drop too.
got to buck up!:DD
had been busy for this few days.
dad brought me new sim card & top up card for bdae present!:D
haha.lazy to top up.but soon.hahaha
tuition was fun.i love it!
alright.today was out with her & her funny cousins out all day.
east coast for BBQ.ohh ya.damn funny.have fun anyway.but my body ache.X:
felt sad that i have no cousins in here.lonely neh.hah
10plus reach home.
& have spa.relax neh.
do F&N and chinese.hah.stress.^^0.
shall do well for my exam:DD hahahha..u guys too!:D
nites.

2008-05-12T01:51:00.000-07:00

mid year finally gonna over..
result getting back..
hoping can do well each day..
really work very hard in my studies.
all i want is that my effort doesn't go in vain.
but looking,comparing....
i noe i make lotts of mistake..
telling myself that its ok, still have prelims & N level..
but im in fear that i cant take it.
watching friend all really work their very hard.
i know and i can sense how stress they are.
good luck and all the best for them.
alryteee....hav to study F&N and POA paper 1:D
will do well:D heeeeeeeee hah.x:

good luck for A maths people tml(:

26.05.08
O level chinese!
and im not yet prepared!
after mid yr..hav to start prepare neh.
hopefully,can get good result for it:DDD

2008-05-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

hatred..
im suffering.
im no longer who i am.
everything had change.
i donno & i wan to forget everything
i....i....m........walking my life all alone..

2008-05-09T04:00:00.000-07:00

hey lloooo
exam gonna finish..
& my Os chinese paper is comin very very soooonn...
& im not ready at all...
many obstacles had been distruting my life..
im gonna vanished...
im sad.....
i need you dear.......
why cant we spent time tgt more often..
haizxzxz...
im sad for my exam this time round...
why cant u people understand me...
i hate this world..

2008-05-02T09:58:00.000-07:00

hello!
im getting over-stress!x:
mon ST social studies SBQ!
ohh hoo...-.-
EXAM is getting difficult & difficult
but really challenging!
hahs...
sudden have a thought of dying..
which im nt suppose to
feel so miserable & pls let me off
haizxzxzxzx.......
i cnnt even focus on my studies!
i wan i wan study!.......................
nth elses.........-.-
im sorry if i treat u ppl cold......
-------------------------------
i promised u that i will stay with u 4ever..
how i wish i can fulfill this promised..........
im tired.im really tired.
dont know how long still can i hold on......
we thought of our future once...
you're a great guy indeed..
what i hope is that i can see u studying hard,
have confident in urself
& stay happy always(:
ii will promised u, i will stay with you till....
as long as we can!
im sorry,i wasn't a nice gal!
-------------------------------

& now let me focus in my study,exam,'N"level..
god,i promise i will do my best for it...
i dun wan to let my parents down!:D

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& i reallly need some comfort!hah